Not a polyamourist actually

The reason I do this is not because I want to be that way in the owrld. One is enuff for me anyway. And so. But I will get a broken heart anyway at the end so I might as well be the one doing the heart breaking. And to my self. And do it in little bits not all at once.

Shave your bumm hairs off with wax to be more andtractive to mens.

fragile nothing left to hold love romanticisize the automobile

deep heart bleedings

lucky man massage every day all day nervous habit

new love to replace the old love. The love that is more convenient.

try

BREAK YOUR OWN HEART FIRST BEFORE THEY CAN BREAK IT FOR YOU!

there is no such thing as love anyways

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sore

crash

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lawyer

real

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work

tight lady pants

complaints

Patience is a good long term strategy

I use to think that I know how to change the quality of life that people would like to choose so they would gain more by helping other people more. I use to think I had the answers and though I could not articulate it I could live it demonstrate it and in doing so be an example in an eventual slow evolution towards a more balanced and whole way of living. But then my life crashed and was shit and the foundations were exposed and shown to be barren.

The more I learn the more I realise I don't know.

The more I learn about life the more I feel like that things I previously thought stupid and destructive are actually things I can empathise with. As a teenager of course I knew it all and how to fix adults if only they would choose to be more creative. Now I find the traps that the stupid adults face are real and I am trapped there too and I will make the poor evil choices I must to survive for there isn't the easy beautiful butterfly solutions I once thought that life had hidden for me to easily discover jut below the surface.

I have a lot of ideas. Ideas are dangerous.

I I I I eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

don't do this or you will get ruined off of the google

make you stay

bike the hand that feeds me

some kind of resolution

FEELING ONLY LOVE IT IS DARKEST BEFORE THE DAWN
What is the matter with me?
Fired for not showing up. If I'd have known they cared I would have been there. But I I always felt kind of superfluous. baad. They never commented on missing me when I wasn't there. At all. I have mixed feelings about being fired. Should I take the opportunity to just leave and not care about love lost since I was often unhappy there anyway. On the other hand it was a pretty sweet day in a lot of ways and I really loved being there when there wasn't too much BS and I was really helping people fix their problems.

Should I retaliate. Should I fight it? Who and how.

Am I too trusting? Am I too dumb? Is it all my fault? Did I do myself in? Just an empty place? Just like the weather. Can't hold him together. Burning through the bloodline. Cutting down the family tree. Growing in the landscape darling. 1st world problems. I hate that phrase and idea so much. I was a pioneer of that kind of cynicism when I was 12 or 13 and learned about Noam Chomsky and how false our guilded media headscape was. But there is something bitter and jealous and apathetic.... First world problems are trivial after all. Better we all be exploited subject of colonial empire so that none be greater. Any luxury should be begrudged. That some prosper we must hate?

Certainly I could understand that sentiment from the poor and beaten down. But typically it is a right wing call to disunite and apathy from someone wrapped up in that 1st world pettiness more than anything else? OTOH maybe the literal meaning could bring a more global awareness. For AWARENESS. is. after. all. the answer.

Information overload doesn't exist. Be self aware individual. Be Ayn. Be Arnie. Be the terminator. All altruism is self interested.

I have a 3 year old and a 6 year old and the thought of them in contrast to this bleakness makes my eyes tear up. Joy Joy Joy and love is real in this world now. Please. Please be peace. Crying out and love. Love is not enought.

Divorce and custody battles over children. It is a real thing. Too poor to fight anyway. In my 1st world problem vortex.

Just consumer consume. I could be so good at using it all up if only I had the money didn't just have me.

Negotiate for me lawyer of the famiyl law freebie ya good fucking luck swimming upstream against the convention that the mom gets the kids.

I haven't been taking chances.

I have been taking chances.

The wrong ones I guess.

I don't text or email you back fucking asshole. Not any friend not any family. I just wallow in my pit of self pity listening to Marshall Rosenberg. And all it does is teach me to listen for the judgement in the others voices and how they could have said things to me better and how they could be better and how unfair it is to me that they are judging me and I can superiorly offer to them how they SHOUDLHSOUDLHSOUDLHSOODHLSOHDOSHLSHDOHSOS
should.

umm

pile of starred emails to read. Be safe and play 2048 all day.

I SHOULD be in jail just for my moral degeneracy. Boooooooooooooom.,

Stupid and ego. I have the capacity. You have the youpacity. I can't see how I could get to be you. I want to be less alone. But I want to be sooo alone. Alone. WIth it all. No interuptions. Too successful. Tooooooo.

7 devils all around you. 7 devils in my heart.

Toothbrushing song:
Oh the blue sky is so high
oh the blue sky is so high
high as the stars

and the sun is orange and juicy
and the grass is green
and the sea is blue
and I am alone

and it is all so colour
deepness of colour
do you understand my story if I don't tell you there is a character.

my character is yuo., Asusme is it. YU. Mi. Me and u. Lover to lover. The I it and not the I though. Thou. Whatever. I sneezed a Buber. Goober. Buger. Buker. Puker. Looper.

I wish I could do it over. Do it over. Doo be doo.

The sky is blue.

noboydee cares anymore about reading it. worlds are empty. the universe is math and math is our real god. love is pure numbers that can't fail or let you down even though the abstract is never real there is no faith required because we are objective atheists and we belive in the live living numbers of the sport. statistical living and healthcare outcurumbs outcomes the cum the healthcare is a statistic. We have to give to the medecine the statistically most strategic patients and triad the rest. Don't give old people surgery. They will die.

bigbigbigbigb3

soap.

depreciated html styles. the 7 keys to the 14 people who have the keyto turn of the internet.

Everything I say is true. Everythign I say is a real. Spelliing mistakes are obsolete. The last thing to ever be was that. The last thing to be ever waws trast.

I am really living my own real live lift right now for realzies.

(z or s I prefer the britich I am more civilised)

y3s.

leeeetspeak 1337 h4x0r

That guy has a big beard. MY insightful and witty teweet.

google plus1!
facebook
myspace
linkedin
those chinese ones badu or xobo or whatever
pinterest
stumbleupon
the other one
blogger!
the email!
the android and ios cellular telephones
all the likes
spam

merchantOS
ubuntu
linux
wondows
mac
pc
office
computers
binary
c++
coding
taking care of business.

MNFTIU.CC

xkcd
okcupid
superbad
intetert
wikipedia
youtuybe
buzzfeed
rss
googles
bing
apples
foxconn or comm just read it off your motherboard

techsupport made in india

your 2011 phone is a relic

someone paid $490 for that phone in 2011 and I bought it on ebay for $70. The first one I bought for $15 from poland but I sniped it and he lied and never sent it. Or it got lost in the mail. Anyway I got a paypal refuned and the system works. anyway the usb on that one was maybe broken so probably better that I didn't do that. but my $70 phone has a scratch on the lens. Maybe it was in my pocket and my fault? The camera on a cameraphone is important.

REddit. add se;lected image. put in more piuctures it will be more interesting that way. cut and paste. desktop publishing!

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NSA wuz here!

obaba obama husssen

Iwatch the DAILY show cuz I am a smart cookie so there to you TVTVTVTVTGFVTFGVTFGFGVTFGFGVTGTGVtvtvtvtvtvttvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvttvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvttvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvttvtvtvtvtvtvtv

minor heading sytle

normal

subheading

the crossed out strikehsouhgfhj words

 

spellcheck it

 

spell it weird and then you can copyright the word or patent TM whatever. Actually for sure it's trademark. TM. obviously that is what it would be. The thing you do when you speel a word wrong and say it is your company name them you can find it in a goodle search and then you get the search engine optimasation.

 

more:

tumblr is supposed to be like Tumbeler... Actually I don't know the proper spelling of that one LOL

  emopticons:

9 basic needs from Rosenberg (3-05 Basic Human Needs.mp3) Manfred Max Neef -Sustenance (food, air, water, shelter) -Safety (protection) -Love -Empathy -Rest (Recreation, Play) -Community -Creativity -Autonomy (Choose own way of life) -Meaning (purpose. to contribute to life. to make others richer) All human beings have the same needs.9 basic needs from Rosenberg (3-05 Basic Human Needs.mp3) Manfred Max Neef -Sustenance (food, air, water, shelter) -Safety (protection) -Love -Empathy -Rest (Recreation, Play) -Community -Creativity -Autonomy (Choose own way of life) -Meaning (purpose. to contribute to life. to make others richer) All human b

eings have the same needs.9 basic needs from Rosenberg (3-05 Basic Human Needs.mp3) Manfred Max Neef -Sustenance (food, air, water, shelter) -Safety (protection) -Love -Empathy -Rest (Recreation, Play) -Community -Creativity -Autonomy (Choose own way of life) -Meaning (purpose. to contribute to life. to make others richer) All human beings have the same needs.9 basic needs from Rosenberg (3-05 Basic Human Needs.mp3) Manfred Max Neef -Sustenance (food, air, water, shelter) -Safety (protection) -Love -Empathy -Rest (Recreation, Play) -Community -Creativity -Autonomy (Choose own way of life) -Meaning (purpose. to contribute to life. to make others richer) All human beings have the same needs.

at least things can't get any wqor worse.

I belong to the hurricane.

it's ogoing to drink myself to death.

of oh that you see me because I'm staring at you.

vice magazine is real news peroi reporting.

CBC2 radio has ads for Northern Gatewaya from the leader of the 251 recomendations are binding and they agreed more than canadian stadards for oil pipelines.

Ettiquette.

classy

take what the water gave me.

http://www.tarsandssos.org/ <<

I'm really fired though I guess. By email and with "great regret" but I am frineds with the boss. its who you  know don't you know.

I am no longer self empoloyed.

i need the money though

bottom line

at the bootom of the botom

I get not more bottom licking cuz I'm devoring seperated

no more of that sweet cunny bottom

no more

the starts

the moon

have all beeen blown out

twighlight movies