5.5.06

there are so many

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lets kick his ass I tell you,
we cannot lose if we fight together.
They are skinny and weak with gold money,
their bones are none less than those of the ancient jews.

Why is it that anti-semitism stalks that perticular religion.
Could it be the self definition of religion as race
proof final that support for the idea of race
will kill you.

How old is it all?

I was reading about the fucking nazis on wikipedia and all the documents about the sick bastards and their final solution. How completely documented it was. How the policy was so regular. Didn't ever it occur to them to think why? Why the fuck this race thing is a stupid absurd idea? Of course it did, but not enough evidently.

Fucking racist religion. Or is it even old that way. I bet jews didn't define themselves in such genetic terms until more modern times. That's my theory. That matrilinal nonsense can't have survived as long as supposed. Xian religion is just as bad.

Surrender to the one. They say.

Religion does nothing but keep the poor from murdering the rich.

Stupid jingoistic isrealis on the internet. Amazing how they troll IMC and wikipedia with military disinfo. Worse, almost, is that the anti-semetic fucking fascists are lurking outthere to justify the paranoid jingoistic assholes. Almost justifies a standing army but no actually it doesn't.

Doukabours where are you when we need you? Naked protests shut down it all.

Reading about the May 4, 4 dead in Ohio. Why did I do that today? That's weird. I just thought of it and synchronised. Guns. Fucking Americans. Sorry, Fucking USAers. America, the promise land, is a big place. You haven't conquered it ALL yet monroe.

I'm a USAer. I'm a Jew. Both only sorta. I would rather be a shapeshifting NDN trickster shaman. But I'm afraid it's a mythical being and narcissism won't take me there.

Hippies. Hipsters on bicycles. Just when you thought you helped to make this great community of self supporting self propelled people on bicycles they turn into elitist hipsters. At least if they excluded me I could hate them. I guess it was pretty obvious when you see the 'self' so prominent and self propelled. Individualistic. Critical Mass was never elitist. Not by policy anyways. I guess it's kind of self limiting because of certain things. But those things are open, disobediance is not self limiting, it's about... hippies. hipsters. hmm.

Are we going to as a counter culture fuck it all up again? Punk rock can't save us, not if those GAP commercials are real, and they are. Whatever happened to the GAP? Are they a sinking ship? I hope so.

Costco.

Anyways. Glory. You are living inside yourself. We are all the same person actually. We are pretending to not be the same but our differance is superficial. I'm not talking about that. Not like, our uniqueness is nothing. No actually, the same person is in you and in me. I am actually you. There are only as many people as there are choices. There are only that many people. We are all the same person living different lives. There is no two. I'm not being abstract about God. I'm saying that even if you and I can't understand it, my brain is your brain. My secret is your secret, especially the secrets that I keep from you forever. Somehow we just don't notice how we are a networked singular being. The beer salami is over anyways.

Hot summer nights are coming. Do we really live them? It always seems like nostalgia for that movement. The summer is over before it starts. We can't really appreciate our own seasons because we are tricked into not living them. Unless we suffer we forget to live except as a faint memory. Content means we are not alive.

Jesus suffered so that we could all suffer too. Your co-workers are staying up late working hard to make more work for you to do. The object of pointlessness is to find a point. The purpose of meaning is to have a place to go.

I wandered around the plaza and looked at people, thinking. I was too afraid to talk to them, too shy. And what would we talk about? I'm not good at small talk. I just keep in my ipod gameboy cellphone book. I just look and watch and judge. If we are all the same then what does it matter if I bother to reach out and talk to you. It doesn't matter, there are so many little dyings, which one of them, is death.

Flowing water under a river. My peacful voice has gone to bed today. Do you mastrubate regularly. Sex isn't like mastrubation, it is better.

The computer consumes me and my time up into it. It is again 4AM and I have been doing basically little of use. I learned about nazis on wikipedia and about the 4 dead in ohio song. I got a get more patchen MP3s but their not as good ones. I wrote emails but I stopped that hours ago and if I quit the computer at 12AM that would have been better.

Who cares?

Apathy is so boring. I have been putting off doing my essay again. I wish school were over. Oh, it already is. I wish school were on. I wish people would care what I was writing and if it was late. I wish I wasn't stressed out at the last minute. I wish to eat salami right now.

Is utne reader becoming a bullshit new age publication? I want the weed that filters my hot tub even though I have no hot tub 'spa.' The pizza guys need to deliver their pizzas by bicycle. The government should subsidies it. business subsidy. Email Peter Ladner. Good policy. Because of the price of gas. Vancouver sun. Cell phones kill another cyclist while driving in langley. Big surprise. This list is frequently updated.

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